I grip tighter. Maybe if I re-group, re-evaluate. There must be a way to make this work. What am I missing?
Romans 8: 32 – He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son, but gave Him up for us all ~ will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?
In my previous post I shared that I am growing in the understanding that by failing to walk in constant communion with God (in every moment, in every situation), I am choosing to rely on my own ability, my own wisdom, my own insight, and my own strength to live. As I have struggled to give up my independence, I am beginning to realize that when I am connected to the Creator of the Universe I don’t need anything else! In those times when I feel lack, it is because I am not connecting with God at a deep level. That’s when I feel anxious and my mind takes control. I think and plan and worry and stew. I am determined to make things go MY way. I pour all my resources into finding a way to make it work.
Heaven help me! I forget that He is in charge of my life. He has the answer. He is the solution. I am only required to do two things:
1) Let go. Refuse to worry about anything.
2) Switch my focus from the problem to His Presence.
It sounds so simple but it is so hard (at least for me, it is). It is a constant discipline which I have yet to master. I am thankful that the Holy Spirit continues to invite me to come; and when I do, I am never disappointed. To the degree that I submit, I am filled.